Reflections

This is part penance, part self examination. I was asked to reflect on how I've grown spiritually and how I want to grow. I've grown a lot since my conversion. Before it I was having a Devil May Care attitude about it all; I could sin all I wanted, because once you were Saved, you were always Saved! I felt bad sometimes, but I just told myself that I was sorry to God, but it was okay because He had already forgiven me.

Once I started to think about it though, it didn't make sense. Especially with Paul saying that we are always in the process of sorting our sins with fear and trembling. We wouldn't be afraid if we didn't have a reason to be. That realization helped me grow a lot as I journeyed into Catholicism.

The biggest had to be the trip to Blessed Margaret of Castello, the Perpetual Adoration chapel. It was a singular transformative moment where I was totally converted, and I've previously called it on this blog, My Damascus. It was, it was that moment where you encounter Christ and you have no choice but to bow down...

Coming into the Church at Vigil was nice, especially after going through RCIA. Even if Father C. almost lit himself on fire in the billowing wind that evening. To receive for the first time was amazing after the wait.

Then coming up here has been big too! Doing the charismatic stuff, even if I'm not a firm believer in it and hanging out with the Catholic Student Association. In a year? God willing I'll be working on a dissertation and thanking the Lord for His goodness.