Alive Again

The other year, Matt Maher, an artist my ex introduced me wrote a song called Alive Again. I don't know if I ever thanked her for introducing me to his work, but if not I definitely should have. I've avoided it like the plague for almost a year now, because I was so afraid it would remind me of what I had lost. I was wrong, it has shown me what I have gained.

For so long I wandered in the wilderness, in the spiritual desert, unable or unwilling to move on in my spiritual life. It seemed like God was intensely distant; and I'm honestly not sure when that changed. I just know at some point in the last few weeks, it did. My anger and my resentment at both He and my ex evaporated like a freshly fallen snow. And now I truly feel as though this song is alive to me, because I am Alive Again.

I woke up in darkness
Surrounded by silence
Oh where, oh where have I gone?
I woke to reality Losing its grip on me

Oh where, where have I gone?
'Cause I can see the light
Before I see the sunrise
You called and You shouted

Broke through my deafness
Now I'm breathing in and breathing out
I'm alive again
You shattered my darkness

Washed away my blindness
Now I'm breathing in and breathing out
I'm alive again
Late have I loved You
You waited for me, I searched for You

What took me so long?
I was looking outside
As if Love would ever want to hide
I'm finding I was wrong

'Cause I feel the wind
Before it hits my skin
'Cause I want You,
Yes I want You I need You, and I'll do

Whatever I have to just to get through
'Cause I love You,
Yeah I love You