So my ex is engaged

Long time readers of this blog know that when I converted to Catholicism, I was in the midst of a long term and long distance relationship with a woman.  When she dumped me, it came as a total shock and while I was looking at engagement rings online.  That event traumatized me in the field of dating and I didn't even talk to another woman with the intent to date, let alone marry, for years.   I had planned to propose that Spring in the Eucharistic Adoration chapel that she found for me, which led me to the faith truly. 

So when I came back from conference and found out she was engaged I felt two things.  The first was an almost instinctual quailing from my inner self; how it was unfair she had dumped me and was now engaged to a man who is my clone in almost every way.  However, after the initial moment subsided, I felt something different, something that I still feel now, several weeks later.  I'm happy for them.  Since they began to date, I've prayed for the two of them and that if he was as nice a guy as I thought, that they would get married.  She deserves a good man and I do believe she's found him. 

More selfishly, I'm happy for myself.  The fact that I was able to almost immediately shut out the thoughts of "it's not fair" for "Good for them" shows that I've matured since the end of our relationship and that I'm not half as heartbroken (and broken period) as I once was.  When she dumped me I spent over a year in a deep depression, a Dark Night of the Soul, from which I didn't know if I would be able to crawl out of.   For a little over a year, my nightly prayer was, "It's okay if I don't wake up tomorrow Lord."  I lived for Mass, the only time I could take my mind off of the soul crushing gloom I felt.  If I'm actually happy for she and her husband to be, that means that Dark Night that seemed to be so impassible for a year, has truly gone from me these years later.

So may God bless the two of you and may He provide you many happy years together.  May you both know the warmth of one another's loves, through good and bad, though hopefully there will be way more of the good!  May He bless you both and keep you and lead you together along the path to sainthood (but not too quickly, because we all hope for long lives here on Earth).