The Winds of Change

Last night, Representative Allan Mollohan conceded his race to his opponent. For the first time in my lifetime, and indeed my parents' lifetimes, a Mollohan will not be in the House of Representatives. I have no use for him as a politician, but still...it's just another sign of the winds of change that have been sweeping through my life of late.

I don't mean this in a bad way either. My life has been swept by change over the course of the past four or five years. I've converted to Catholicism, and in so doing found a joy unlike any other that I have ever conceived possible; I've found not only Truth, but also a center of intellectual understanding that emphasizes both faith and reason. In Adoration I've discovered a peace I had never known before on Earth.

I switched majors from Computer Security to Criminal Justice at the behest of my adviser at the time. I was losing hair from the stress, barely squeaking by, with sixteen hours a day spent on projects that time after time wouldn't work. Four years after that decision to switch majors at his behest, I'm going to graduate with my Masters degree. In August I move on to my Ph.D. program. I never imagined when I was entering into my Bachelors degree, that I would go on for a doctorate!

I've loved and lost, and despite the depression --which I'm pulling out of by the way, less answers then the last time I took the Wakefield Test-- I am a better person for it, as my ex remains my best friend whom I would tell anything to in confidence.

And I'm going to IUP. I'm moving out on my own, and won't be around anyone who knows me. I'll be living with someone I know in passing, and one of the undergrads there knows me well. So I finally have a chance to reinvent myself into a more social creature, away from people who know me. Away from the emotional abuse I've endured for twenty-three years.

Change is inevitable, and so rarely in my life, has it been of a negative nature.